Between Sleep and Waking

Standing beside his bed, in the dim of his nightlight, I think.

Do I wake him? His sister has a snow day, but his school has not called it off. I watch him sleep. His body peaceful. Calm. Slow breathing. His skin fair. His dark eyebrows contrasting against his blond hair. Bending over I squint to watch his lids, to determine if he is dreaming. I think he is.

What are you dreaming about little man?

If I send him to school he won’t be thinking about the cats all day. He’s allergic. We need to find new homes for them. Two nights now he’s cried, brokenhearted. I run my fingers through his hair and he rouses. Just a bit.

Slowly he rises up from layers of sleep, until the tipping point is reached, more awake than asleep.

At precisely this moment, comes the first vocal tic of the day.

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*Seth, age four, with his beloved cat Sam.

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8 Responses to Between Sleep and Waking

  1. kario says:

    Oh, man! I wish it wasn’t so, but I hope that once the kitties are gone, maybe he will see a major improvement? So sad to lose those lovely creatures, but you know they will end up just where they need to be.

    Love.

  2. Meg says:

    I empathize!

    I wish I could tell you a perfect way to handle the separation from beloved pets, but I just don’t know one. Anna is still grieving, though much less, and Betsy feels guilty because it was her “fault”. We do visit Rescue Village every so often to soak up some furry love which seems to help some. Our cats were adopted out of there together. It is a no-kill shelter. I hope for everyone’s sake that Seth’s symptoms improve!

  3. Kim says:

    Oh, poor little guy. I’m so sorry for you all. I hope that you find the right homes for them and that Seth starts to feel better. xoxo

  4. Dee Ready says:

    Dear Michelle, what a poignant story of Seth at four having to give up the cats. My heart aches for him. What has he found to take the place of having them in his life? Peace.

  5. We’ve not yet found homes for them Dee. Just starting that process. He will have his beloved dog to help ease the pain, but it will be a big loss for both he and Riley.

    : (

  6. Carrie Link says:

    Oh, Effie, I am just now catching up on blogs. I am SOOOOOO sorry to hear this!!! Gut wrenching! Sending love, love and more love, that, and the perfect home for the kitties.

  7. Tanya Savko says:

    Sending big hugs and lots of love. So sorry for all of you! xoxo

  8. Amber says:

    Oh, poor baby. 🙁
    I’m sending prayerful love. ((((Seth))))

    Oxox:)

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