The Grump Family

I have been dealing with a very bad cold since Tuesday. The kind that doesn’t allow you to sleep because so much is going in with your throat, ears, nose, sinuses, that kind of thing. Seth had it first, then Riley, then me.

It’s been hard, trying to implement this new way of eating, working like crazy in the kitchen, all while not feeling well, and also dealing with the emotions of my children who are having to get used to new food and let go of some old food favorites.

Plus, let’s not forget I too am detoxing from my sugar addiction, and I am an emotional eater and I can’t turn to the foods I love during this stressful time.

Yesterday, I was a total grouch. My kids were driving me crazy. Seth didn’t like anything I busted my butt to prepare for him. I burned my hand in the kitchen. We were going to a party, and I made sure to bring stuff my family could eat, but the whole thing filled Riley with so much anxiety. Anxiety about feeling “deprived” of what everyone else was having. Anxiety about being different. I was getting sick of hearing about it. On the way there we talked about all the kids she knows and I rattled off all of their food issues (there are plenty) and talked about how it isn’t a big deal and everyone had something they’re dealing with, and it was in one ear and out the other, her anxiety ramping up up up. I wasn’t the most patient. I  wasn’t talking it through, or validating her feelings, I was basically rolling my eyes, telling her “no one cares” if you are different, and “if you keep this up, we’re turning around and going home.”

She navigated the party quite well, with a lot of navigating on my part at the beginning, better after she got food, and with some whining at the end as we were leaving… over a box of canolis that showed up. She’s never had a cannoli, and she certainly felt like she was missing out. I convinced her that cannolis are filled with an almost cottage cheese filling and not even all that yummy. Todd mentioned how disgusting the pastry part is, practically made of lard. And for us, it is true, we’ve never really been cannoli people (Cheesecake? Now you’re talking). She felt a little better. Hey…you do what you gotta do.

We took a moonlit walk last night, after I heard the moon would be the  brightest we’d ever see in our lifetime. It was awesome, sitting there on a park bench, looking up at that beautiful moon with my husband and my sweet little kiddos.

After that, Riley was tired and very whiny getting ready for bed. Suddenly so tired she couldn’t wash her face. She started freaking about the garbage in the bathroom being full. She was teetering. Todd, who had worked at 6AM and then energizer bunnied all day, going to the store after work and then going to the party, well….he yelled at her.

It wasn’t a good loving supportive day for Riley. She is doing so well most of the time, we sometimes forget she still has autism. We forget it’s not as simple as saying, “Don’t worry about it.” If she could “not worry about it,” she certainly would. We never could have just blown off her feelings even a couple of years ago. We’d have had a major meltdown on our hands. Sometimes we forget how hard she is still working.

This morning, I snuck into her room and snuggled into her bed, wrapping my body around hers. She wiggled into me. I held her a while and then said, “Riley, I’m sorry I was so grumpy yesterday.”

Immediately she turned to me with her big beautiful eyes and said,

“I totally forgive you.”

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7 Responses to The Grump Family

  1. Jerri says:

    Such a hopeful story, Michelle. It illustrates how far you guys have come, shows that even the very best of parents have off days, and reminds us how important it is to forgive and be forgiven. Totally.

  2. Chris V. says:

    Jerri said it way better than I could…

  3. Sheri says:

    I really wanted to say something to help her feel better about it, Michelle, and am so sorry I came up with nothing. She is so, so sweet and you are too and you both work so hard to get through all that’s on your plates. I hope it can get a little easier for you both as it becomes more routine, and most of all that you see all the results you want to see! Peace and good health to you…

  4. kario says:

    It is so hard to be in that place – when everything is changing. When change is happening for our kids but not us, we can be their anchor, but when it’s happening for everyone simultaneously it rocks the whole boat. Good for you for being self-aware and good for Riley for recognizing and forgiving.

    Love to you all. Here’s hoping the coming week will be much better as you navigate the diet changes.

  5. amber says:

    Nice. What a sweetheart.
    And I agree with Jerri.


  6. Carrie Link says:

    And I totally believe her.

  7. Nina says:

    Can relate! I have a cold that is making me so grouchy and I’m also forever trying to eat better (for me that also means MUCH LESS SUGAR). I’m also off dairy while I’m nursing. The minute someone says I can’t eat something I think of nothing else but THAT thing. Not good.

    Anyway, good reminder not to take it out on the kids.

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