Yesterday, the kids and I accompanied our friend Jancy to The Cleveland Botanical Gardens where Orchid Mania is presently happening.
Contrast the tranquility of these photos, with my extreme frustration at not being able to figure out how to upload said slide show onto the blog. Seriously it was bad. After tinkering with it last night for hours, I was dejected. There were tears. HT tried for a bit. He couldn’t figure it out either, and finally he forced me to step away from the computer and watch Modern Family to cheer me up. But I still was overwhelmed. It felt like the time in nursing school, when there was this professor, who hated adult learners, and only liked the 19 year olds she could intimidate. She took me and a couple of other older students (I was 28, they were in their forties) in the accelerated program and found ways to slice our papers to shreds. She gave me a 46 on a paper. I’d never received below a 90 on a piece of writing in my life. Of course she made her lackey assistant deliver the papers. She was a twisted woman, and I was a serious wreck, feeling like such a failure over this. (Finally another faculty member pulled me aside and was all….Look…I’ll deny I ever said this…but she is nuts, don’t take it personally, this isn’t about you. I’ll never forget her kindness).
So last night, all this negative self talk was just flying through my head. I should be able to put a slide show up on my blog. It shouldn’t be that hard. Like there is a personal deficit in me because I am not a computer whiz. I was really beating myself up.
And I know the “shoulds” are ridiculous. I know better. And I know there are a lot bigger problems in the world than whether I can get my Orchid Mania slide show up and running. Seriously, this morning? It’s laughable. But sometimes, I’m just that intense about things. And no it isn’t lost on me how my little apple of a daughter didn’t fall far from the tree.
I’ll keep trying for the pretty slide show, but it may be a few days. Mommy needs to take a break from the Orchids.
We had fun at Orchid Mania though. It was a great day yesterday, until the slide show.
At least I got a pretty new header for my efforts.