What I Do When I Get Scared

Sometimes I feel so scared.

I wake in the night, feeling like life is just ticking away. So little time. At the theater the other night, I see an actor back flip through the air repeatedly and I know that is one thing I’m probably not going to experience this lifetime. What’s it like? Flying through the air with such freedom in your body?

I should have been a gymnast. Or a dancer. What would that have been like? Not a Black Swan miserable pain and suffering dancer…but…just….I don’t dance enough.

When I feel that frightening…time ticking away feeling, I have to remind myself we’re all eternal. What I don’t get to experience in this lifetime, I’ll get to experience in another one. Most of the world believes in reincarnation, btw. And there are many, many stories which lead me to believe it is true. We are but a beautiful bit of a much larger soul, which is part of a much larger ever expanding Universe.

Whatever I have done so far, is enough, even as I look forward to experiencing so much more of what this life has to offer.

One of the things that helps me when I feel scared is a set of questions from A Course in Miracles.

Where would You have me go?

What would You have me do?

What would You have me say and to whom?

This very blog post is a response to those questions. For me, just asking the questions and creating space to listen for answers takes away feelings of fear, helplessness or despair. Just honoring that I do have something of value to offer, no matter how small. One thing which also helps when I feel scared is listening to Rev. Michael Beckwith’s Living From the Overflow. Maybe it will help you too. I felt moved to mention it.

Love.

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6 Responses to What I Do When I Get Scared

  1. Carrie Link says:

    Love. (And YAMH.)

  2. Jenny R says:

    So good to have your blog back.

  3. I’m with Jenny: So glad to have you back!

  4. amber says:

    Sometimes the ways in which we are alike leave me stunned.

    Thank you fo rthe link. I’m sure it was for me.

    ;)

  5. kario says:

    Why is fear so much more palpable in the night? Sometimes when I get scared in the night, the simplest thing I can do is open my eyes and look around me at the tangible things in my life and remember that I am here in this moment and all is well and I am safe.

    And you’re right. You’ll be back. You’ve been here before, but right now, in this life, you’re doing so much. And we all appreciate it.

    Love.

  6. Jerri says:

    In “Scottie Who Knew Too Much,” James Thurber wrote, “It is better to ask some of the questions than to know all of the answers.”

    Funny how asking the questions calms the fears. You are wise and wonderful and oh so welcome back here in cyberspace.

    (Keith Olbermann read that story in his last broadcast. He was a little loud for me, but I like his taste in writers.)