Every traffic light was red. We got to martial arts late.
Riley maintained calm. She walked in. Ran to the bathroom to wash her hands(she’d had a snack in the car), then joined the class in progress. This was big, as being late is a trigger for her.
It was a substitute teacher. He does things differently. He is a wonderful person, but he does things differently.
Riley maintained calm.
She did 100 sit ups for the first time ever! No one holding her feet.
But he does things differently.
Three fourths of the way into class, she lost it. He had the kids do a drill, and it got kind of loud, and chaotic and she ran screaming from the room and into the teacher’s office. Her blood curdling screams went on and on. I followed her and closed the door. Usually if she’s that far gone, it’s all over.
She threw herself on the office sofa, still screaming. Sitting down I pulled her close and held her tight.
This time I didn’t tell her,
I didn’t tell her,
“You are disrupting the class.”
I didn’t tell her,
“You need to get it together.”
I didn’t put my hand over her mouth as I’ve been prone to do in public places.
This time I said,
“Mr. S. does things differently.” My sentence hung in the air a while.
She sucked in her breath and the screams became whimpers.
I said, “It can be confusing sometimes with a different teacher.”
Riley turned to me and buried her head into my neck.
Stroking her arm, I began to speak in my softest whisper, what we’ve practiced in mediation.
“Riley. There is a part of you that is bigger than this physical body sitting here on the couch with me. This larger part of you is not separate from you, but part of you. It is always there. Part of you came here, in this body, to help expand All That Is. You, and everyone you meet, are extentions of God. You are a very important person! Your Higher Self is so grateful to you for being here. You are doing such good work. Your Higher Self knows how strong and brave you are. Your Higher Self, this part of you, is always calm. Always knows what to do. You can always turn to It. It is pure Love. It is where you came from, and where you will return to. It is always with you, always loving you, always there to show you the way.”
We sat in silence for a while. I felt her body slowly let go of the tension. Then she was ready.
She returned to class and finished it successfully.
My daughter and me.
Teaching each other who we are.