My mother is coming to visit today. I pick her up at the airport this afternoon. She will be here for five days. Riley and Seth are excited. They don’t really know her much, and truly, she only knows them from my blog. She’s only seen them a few times in their lives. I think she hasn’t really known if I wanted her in my life or what her place should be.
She had decided not to read my book, she didn’t want to go back to re-visit that time in our lives. I was fine with that because then I didn’t have to deal with her reaction to it. But in May she did read it. And she called my sister and her first words were, “It’s all true.”
That created an opening in me.
She supported me during the writing of it. She somehow knew it was therapeutic for me, and even if she didn’t come off smelling like a rose, she felt it was something I needed to do and she supported me. But to read it, and take it all in, and then validate it like that, I think shows courage.
I asked her to come this first time without her husband. I think we just need time to connect. Time to really sink into knowing each other without having to worry about or even consider anyone else. Todd will have my crew under control. I appreciate her husband understanding.
I want to meet each other where we are right now.
May our highest selves show up for this reunion. May we let go of old wounds and notions and ideas which no longer serve us. May it be a very good visit.